I am at it again ….

­­­­­­­­­­­It’s always a sad state of affairs when members seem to realise more is wrong than the people behind it.  For years now I and many Friends of a known software have stated that there is an issue arising, one that will not go away until it is admitted.  The constant reply from the current team is denial that there is an issue.  However when I was in the top position I was open about the issues and I was praised for being honest, but overnight with no changes all issues were fixed and everything is hunk dory perfect.  All is right in the world, well in the software, and the massively declining stats are expected and nothing to worry about, even though the majority are lower than when the software was first formed in 2003.  I have been vocal about this decline not due to fact that I dislike the software, as that is a lie, the software has always and will always hold special part in my heart, is it as I dislike the team, well no, I have many friends on the team that I trust, but like many friends of the software we have been vocal as we want the software to succeed.  The first step would be for the team to admit there is an issue and work with the friends who are willing to help, using the expertise available instead of thinking they know all and can fix all.

In the open source market the software is a small fish in a big pond, thinking it is larger than it truly is, punching above its own weight, refusal to spend money on advertising or even attending open source events as they cannot see the benefit.  But they are right what benefit is there in sending a team to an event full of open source developers, an event that has funders looking for the next best open source project, an event that is the event of the year for open source products.  But to re-iterate the fact we do not hate the software, we do not hate the team, what we hate is what the software is becoming.  And the first step in any recovery is be honest and accept you have an issue, the team needs to do this and accept this or an endemic failure will occur.  It has started to and its worrying that a minority of people fail to see this, the minority that can change things.

The leadership at all levels needs to look at the product life cycles, looking at how often releases are being made, and accepting that even a project that is made of volunteers needs goals and targets.  Continuing the philosophy that it will be done when it’s done and please remember we are volunteers does not encourage people to get involved, they have no incentive, looking at other open source software who have a more noticeable release schedule, it makes one wonder why more people are using that software, as they can see active development.  The leadership also needs to look at incentives for people to be on the team, something that will motivate them and thank them for doing a good job.  Years ago people would metaphorically die to be a team member, now there is no such thing, no-one is coming forward as the incentive and motivation for the project is no longer viable.

But all is ok in the software and the growing amount of former team members and general users are all worrying for nothing, but it seems more and more that the blinkers are on the team.  Working in an old adage of business and not understanding the concept of progressiveness, as the team are too scared, scared of change, scared of moving out with the status quo and scared that people like myself will be proven correct if they change.  I will not endorse the old management style, but more we see what is happening the more commonalities are arising.  Some former team members who left in the transition if they looked at current system and issues they would be rolling their eyes saying “what have they done? What have they become?”

As the team will say I am attacking the software again, once again I will state that nobody I spoke to nor do I hate the software or team, we have issues with the way it is being moved backwards, and no movement forward, this point will be constant, as any attempt to open the eyes of the team means that we are attacking them, and I for see another topic being opened stating I am attacking the team, as is now the norm when I speak out.  But when a former team member says there is an issue, the automatic response is then “join us again” many friends no longer have the motivation or time to leave, and others would not be accepted as the team are too proud and worried about discontent of someone speaking against the all is ok philosophy.

By the time the team admit there is an issue it will be too late, it’s not too late now, and the friends I spoke to are happy to help, on a basis that fits our schedules, including the contradictory  of actually spending money in advertising!




Plan is to plan a plan to plan my plan to plan my plan

Well not really but the tongue twister is needed as I need a wee bit of humour.

The plan is to finalize a plan to get as many countries as I can in as this will be my last year of being able to afford to travel for a while as this time next year not only will I be finished University I will finally have my Honors degree, so to go out with style the plan is to fly from Scotland to Sweden then to Finland then to Latvia then a few weeks in Greece for it to end in France and final return to Scotland and hopefully a day trip to Estonia and still having enough to time to get down to Manchester to see K@ and Jane.  My countries plan does include Diesel who has promised to alter some aspects of himself such as in greece go a walk on his own, we shall see.

Biggest thing is looking forwards to seeing all my friends in Turku again, its been 2 years and I miss them all, and what do I miss more well Salmiakki and Piima, damn I need Salmiakki and Piima!

Do You Like Me (Version 2)

Simple questions,

Do you like me?
Do you want to be more than friends?

Please dont give glances,
Soft whispers, or play mind games.

Just answer in a way I can hear.

Simple yes or no
Lets just be friends or more

So yet again,
Simple questions

Do you like me?
Do you want to be more than friends?

My mind can’t fathom unclear responses,
I need a clear indication by words.

Something simple, and you may be surprised,
That I possibly feel the same!

© 2015-2016

Do You Like Me (Version 1)

Don’t tell me that you like me,
Through glances and a smile,
Do not say that you want more,
In a way that cannot be seen.

Don’t tell me you like me,
By actions unclear,
Don’t tell me that you like me,
In a way I can’t hear.

Be honest and verbal,
Say how you feel,
Maybe I will feel the same.
But till you ask we wont know if its real.

© 2015-2016


Free yourself,
From the confides of society,
liberate your souls,
From the forced exile.

Let society know that,
no longer will you
play by the rules,
of a preconceived notion.

That you must cover up!

Break the bonds that,
weigh you down,
that cover your roots
To the ground.

Remove those obstacles,
That allow your souls to feel the earth,
To feel the grass on hot summers day,
the textures of nature,
Below your feet.

Do it once a day,
Once a week,
Once a month,

In a park,
a field,
you garden.

Liberate yourself.
Free your soul,
Take off the leather bindings,
The plastic below you,
The suede that covers you.

Free your feet,
Take off the shoes, the stilettos,
Boots, sandals.

Remove your socks.

Feel nature below your feet,
Take the risk of standing in hidden dog shit.

Live life
Be connected to what supports you,
Gives you life.
And enjoy!

© 2015-2016

La Team Greece 2012

3 Years,
3 Years,
3 Years!

Since I took that step,
The leap of faith,
Moved to a new land,
Some would call it fate!

3 years
since LaTeam Greece 2012
Nunzia, Joquim, Janna and myself.

3 years
Since my life changed for the better.

3 Years
Since happiness,
And I mean, proper, true, happiness
Was lost as I
Returned to Scotland.

3 years
Since I last fell in love
And she threw it in my face!

3 Years
Since we visited the amazing islands
Naxos, Syros and Andros!

3 years
Since she and I sat on the kerb and cuddled
Wishing I was single
As our friend went berserk.

3 years
Since we said goodbye,
A last minute call from airport so you could say farewell.

3 years,
Since LaTeam Greece 2012

3 long years!

© 2015-2016


Close the blinds,
And your eyes,
Let’s all be patient for,
The surprise.

Lock the doors,
Turn off the lights,
Don’t worry now,
it will be alright.

Unplug the phone,
Turn mobile devices off,
No sound to be heard,
Not even from the loft.

Here it comes,
One, Two, Three.
Shit I forgot,
What I was going to say!

© 2015-2016


It’s always a memory,
A worry or fear,
Its always the small things,
That exaggerate your tears.

It’s always the one that got away,
That makes things clear.
Its always that loved one,
That makes you fear.

It’s always a memory,
That tears you apart,
Its always that thought,
That hurts the heart.

It’s always the special one,
That races through your mind,
It’s always the forbidden one.
That you dream of at night.

It’s always the struggles,
That makes love worth the shot,
It’s always the desire,
The feeling that gets you higher.

© 2015-2016

What Would You Do

What would you do,
If I told you that I liked you,
Held a crush,
For a few years.

Afraid to let you know,
In case of rejection,
Failure with another,
Girl I liked.

From past mistakes,
Mistakes I have made,
In this life.

What would you say?
If I admitted my feelings,
Would you be awkward?
Or say you feel the same?

What would you say,
If I tell you,
I get knots each time we speak,
Smile as though id won the lottery.

What would it be like,
If I told you I will always be there,
To listen as a friend,
Or more if you like.

What would you do,
If I told you that I liked you,
Afraid to let you know,
In case of another rejection.

© 2015-2016